Seize The Moment

1000

So considering that this is my 1000th post, I want to really kind of pour my heart out on this one as I kind of update you all on whats going on in my life. So pardon me if this post is kinda long…

Work - I’ve been working at Los Alamitos Medical Center for almost a year now. It’s weird how time has flown by. It’s chill and not too demamding and I love the flexibility that I have with my boss. Granted he gets mad easily at times, I can understand that his patience runs low considering he works at other nursing facilities and does aome teaching on the side, so he only hopes that as one of his only sources of administrative help I need to be on point and make his life a bit easier. For the most part, I enjoy working there. I only hope that I gained more hours so that I can really sustain a good source of income because my paychecks alone do not help pay all my big girl bills (ie. Cell phone, car insurance, credit cards) or any other miscellaneous things I need. I’m hoping to get another job after the semester is over though so I can still live a bit more confortably.

School - This being my 4th year at CSULB, the reality of seeing a good handful of my friends are graduating is settling in… especially two of my pledge sisters. Yes, my anticipated graduating class is gonna be cuh-rackin as f*ck, but its weird seeing friends pursuing their careers for real. I almost somewhat don’t know how I feel about not graduating this year. Not that I feel like a failure, but I don’t know why I didn’t push myself to do more academically so I could’ve graduated “on time”. I know that there’s no use in getting all riled up in it because I’m all set to graduate next spring, but it’s just been recent that I just started feeling this way. In the end, I’m more than excited to do get my internship next year! Hopefully with a special events planning organization or on a school campus working with students.

PCN - I really can’t explain in words how excited I am for this PCN season! I honestly feel bad for board and especially my rural co-coordinator for being almost competely M.I.A. but I’m more than grateful to know that they’ve accepted and understood my dedications to other things in my life. I’m truly blessed to have Rey as my co. His lively spirit, constant positive attitude, and support has really made this process much easier for me. Everything we’ve done so far as a board has been nothing but FUN. I wish I didn’t have to miss retreat or the first rural-spanish mixer, but I guess Bottle Service Wednesdays will compensate for that, haha! Overall, like any other year, I can’t wait to see this beautiful student production come together and see our little PAC family grow stronger.

Kappa - The root of most of my stress… BUT so worth every bit of it! This being my 3rd active year, 4th year dedication if you include my pledge year, has really given me the best opportunities to become a womyn of strength, independence, and most of all trust in the struggle. As much as I want to reveal my thoughts on how I am as a Pledge Mom, I don’t want to reveal too much… so you will see a full on reflection later down the line somewhere in the future. But I just wanna put out there that this year has revealed many more things about myself that I personally didn’t know and I’m glad I took on something that I felt was bigger than me.

Personal Life - In my spare time, I’ve been enjoying time with sisters, PAC friends, my littles, and when I get the chance, my family. Lately I’ve been insecure about my slight weight gain from last summer and since then have been super determined to adjust my diet and excercise habits. Lately, like in a previous post, I’ve been in a bit of a funk that I’ve been stuck in for quite some time… but I’ll write more about that another time. But on a lighter note, although it doesn’t probably show, I’ve actually lost some weight and I’m glad that I’ve been able to discipline myself thus far. So hopefully by summer, I’m fully on sexytrain status again ;) Besides all that, I know I’ve grown and matured a lot as an individual. I know that there are things that I can do better, but I know that it will take time to cultivate and develop. There’s always room for improvement.

I’m forever a student of life. Constantly learning through experience and struggle. No matter the trials and tribulations, I will persevere through them.

And to end this off, thank you to all my friends and family that have stood by me throughout everything! I can never say it enough how truly blessed I am to have you all in my life, no matter how big or small the impact is.

Thank you for reading! Love you all!

♥, Desiree Joy